I Wont Leave A Guy I Need For A Guy I Want.

Honestly, many thought have been through my mind when i thought of moving on.. Each time i ask myself, will things turn out to be the same again ? Will i get hurt and cry myself to bed every night ? Losing sleep,  Losing appetite, Losing weight an falling sick.. Is all this worth it ? 

Many people come and go in life, some stays for awhile while some stays for a lifetime.. Im just too afraid i might get hurt again.. Its never easy whenever you fall for someone and those flashback came haunting in my mind, reminding me and warn me about my past.. 

This 9 month have been hell for me. Pushing everyone that cares for me away. Afraid i might get hurt again and again.. 

But things changes when i met him...

As days goes by.. 

I asked myself...

Everything started off..

With a stick, a smile.. It's where we started talking and the first question you asked, " Do you think i malay or chinese?" hahaha it where everything begin.. The feeling i had was i wished i get to know more about you. & the smiled i had each time i saw you was so different.. 

I told myself we could only be just friends.. haha, until when we started talking.. You respect me so much as a girl, compliment me. When i told you're being too sweet, you said it was all the fact & you're not being sweet.. How you wanna see me so badly each day. & how badly you wanna talk to me.. How each day you would remind me how beautiful im when im not & how much you wish i could be yours.. How you're being man of your words, just bcos you could'nt make it for a meet up, the next morning you came all the way to SK from tamp just to pay back what you owe me.. I really couldnt ask for more.. 

Im Sorry that ive been pushing you away asking you to wait and wait for the right time. But than i realise, you're someone i caould lose.. I never wanna lose you.. If i ever did...

I hope you stay by me, be patient towards me.. I know ive an attitude which is hard to handle, but you still try every ways just to make me happy and stuff.. I hope i would make my choice wise enough, i wouldnt regret whats gonna happen in time to come.. Even if the bad time comes i hope we'll be strong enough to overcome everything.. Even if we don't... Honestly, I've NO REGRETS having you in my life.. Taking a place in my heart, i ought to believe, you are the one ive been waiting for :)

Thankyou God For Everything You've Planned For Me.. 

And...

 Take A Chance...

Before Everything is too late..

Lastlyy....

I cant wait to spend the next fews years or hopefully forever with you... as my partner :)

A Judmental Society Kills People..

Too lazy and busy to blog so lately.. Busy with schools & stuff.. Orientation camp was great but our class dosent seems to be bonding well, oh well.. things got a little better aft SM camp :) Know more people from oth class and stuff :) ITE is where people think useless people go to.. But i dont think tht way actually.. The teachers are helpful and supportive.. they help us whenever we're in doubt, support us to go poly and make sure we do well and get good GPA and move on.. :) I hope i can and i will aft 2 years..

& here it goes...

I just don't get it.. why do ppl judge so easily when they know nothing ? Is this why in a country like Singapore we cant have guy best friend ? how ppl see us is couple.. 

Let me as you a qns.. If a girl isn't with a guy officially like couples. Isn't the guy free to go with anyone ? 
furthermore, i didn't take a knife and point at him to be with me.. We talked, he chose me, he chose to like me.. Am i in the wrong?! 

Im tired of all those shit.. just that he's younger thn me we cant be bestfriend? Is it ? 

Fuck this shit ive enough of it.. BYE !!