I Wont Leave A Guy I Need For A Guy I Want.

Honestly, many thought have been through my mind when i thought of moving on.. Each time i ask myself, will things turn out to be the same again ? Will i get hurt and cry myself to bed every night ? Losing sleep,  Losing appetite, Losing weight an falling sick.. Is all this worth it ? 

Many people come and go in life, some stays for awhile while some stays for a lifetime.. Im just too afraid i might get hurt again.. Its never easy whenever you fall for someone and those flashback came haunting in my mind, reminding me and warn me about my past.. 

This 9 month have been hell for me. Pushing everyone that cares for me away. Afraid i might get hurt again and again.. 

But things changes when i met him...

As days goes by.. 

I asked myself...

Everything started off..

With a stick, a smile.. It's where we started talking and the first question you asked, " Do you think i malay or chinese?" hahaha it where everything begin.. The feeling i had was i wished i get to know more about you. & the smiled i had each time i saw you was so different.. 

I told myself we could only be just friends.. haha, until when we started talking.. You respect me so much as a girl, compliment me. When i told you're being too sweet, you said it was all the fact & you're not being sweet.. How you wanna see me so badly each day. & how badly you wanna talk to me.. How each day you would remind me how beautiful im when im not & how much you wish i could be yours.. How you're being man of your words, just bcos you could'nt make it for a meet up, the next morning you came all the way to SK from tamp just to pay back what you owe me.. I really couldnt ask for more.. 

Im Sorry that ive been pushing you away asking you to wait and wait for the right time. But than i realise, you're someone i caould lose.. I never wanna lose you.. If i ever did...

I hope you stay by me, be patient towards me.. I know ive an attitude which is hard to handle, but you still try every ways just to make me happy and stuff.. I hope i would make my choice wise enough, i wouldnt regret whats gonna happen in time to come.. Even if the bad time comes i hope we'll be strong enough to overcome everything.. Even if we don't... Honestly, I've NO REGRETS having you in my life.. Taking a place in my heart, i ought to believe, you are the one ive been waiting for :)

Thankyou God For Everything You've Planned For Me.. 

And...

 Take A Chance...

Before Everything is too late..

Lastlyy....

I cant wait to spend the next fews years or hopefully forever with you... as my partner :)

A Judmental Society Kills People..

Too lazy and busy to blog so lately.. Busy with schools & stuff.. Orientation camp was great but our class dosent seems to be bonding well, oh well.. things got a little better aft SM camp :) Know more people from oth class and stuff :) ITE is where people think useless people go to.. But i dont think tht way actually.. The teachers are helpful and supportive.. they help us whenever we're in doubt, support us to go poly and make sure we do well and get good GPA and move on.. :) I hope i can and i will aft 2 years..

& here it goes...

I just don't get it.. why do ppl judge so easily when they know nothing ? Is this why in a country like Singapore we cant have guy best friend ? how ppl see us is couple.. 

Let me as you a qns.. If a girl isn't with a guy officially like couples. Isn't the guy free to go with anyone ? 
furthermore, i didn't take a knife and point at him to be with me.. We talked, he chose me, he chose to like me.. Am i in the wrong?! 

Im tired of all those shit.. just that he's younger thn me we cant be bestfriend? Is it ? 

Fuck this shit ive enough of it.. BYE !!

You've made all this worthwhile..

I've move on. i don't see the point having you anymore.. All along i was just a replacement to you i guess ): 

All those will be memories.. thanks for giving so much pain..

okayyy nothing related to him rn.. ive move on , i wont look back.. 

I questioned myself just now.. "Am i reallly in love ?" and i thought about it.. i guess i really am.. I never expected this day would come.. But im glad it came (': Ever since i met you, no one else is worth thinnking about.. I always wish tht the reason behind your smile would always be me.. Eventhough you may be difficult at times, i dont mind taking all those effort to put a smile on your face.. & i question myself again "Are we gonna happen?" and my answer was, yes we would if we really love each other why not.. hahaha, i was actually kinda look forward to tht day tho *cover face* You came and made everything worthwhile... You're perfect for me, thats all that matter babe.. So much that im craving to see you smile each day, i want you to be happy too.. I love how no matter wht you do you can always make me smile effortlessly.. 

If you meant nothing to me. i wouldnt wake up to your every call so i could talk to you.. make you smile when youre down, say things tht would make you smile whenever you're angry or pissed.. & reply to all your cold replies each time you're down.. this is how much you mean to me.. It may be too soon to say all those.. but i just wanna let you know..You're my priority in life.. So much that no one could replace you at this moment as long as you promise me you wouldnt leave.. i promise ill stay forever..

I know at any point of time youll get tired of me.. & youll leave eventually.. But i wish tht day would never come.. I dont know how far we would go.. I just hope its long enough for me to enjoy those times we had together.. So babe, please dont go.. )': You're everything i need rightnow.. iloveyouuuuu. 

Withlove,

ShiXuann xx

Lose you once, love you twice

It has been 6 months since 0909. It's like half a year had pass without him. I've no idea why is it so hard for me to give up on him and move on. it's damn difficult, never easy. Places,dates,time and object can make memories flashback like a bitch, where ill start to feel upset and cranky the whole day.

Bits and pieces of our memories can never fit into a 30secs video.

 I may have heard so much about you for this 6 months, but ill never believe till i see. i heard both sides of the story, from you and from others. i wouldnt judge bcos i have no idea which side is the truth. The pain upon hearing all those is hard, but i still got use to it over time.

I'm sorry, i understand things will nvr be the same again, or maybe better ? The future is unpredictable. Im glad we're still friends or maybe more thn that..  

Other than my parents and clique, you're the guy that understand me more than anyone else. My habit, my love for things and food, what and where im fear of. Nothing beats such an understanding guy like you. 

Nothing can describe my thankfulness for tolerating me this few months. I've been a bitch. im utterly sorry.

I've lose you once, I'll love you twice..
It's Complicated. 

2013/2014

THIS POST SUMMERISE UP MY WHOLE 2013.. I STARTED 2013 WELL WITH HIM AND ENDED IT WELL WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE ^^ AS WELL AS PARTIED HARD WITH THOSE AWESOME DUDES AND MY GIRLS ON THE FIRST SECOND OF 2014.. GAVE MY FIRST NEW YEAR KISS TO MY DEAREST XINPING , AND RECIEVED ONE FROM SOMEONE.. HAHAH  

I BELIEVE I HAD MANY UP AND DOWN THIS YEARS.. OR PROBABLY THE WORSE YEAR AS WELL .. THINGS JUST DECIDED TO HAPPPEN BEFORE MY OLVL'S ): I JUST COULDNT BRING MYSELF TO EXCEPT ALL THIS. I MET NEW PEOPLE, MET NEW ENVIRONMENT & LITERALLY FELL FOR SOMEONE ILL NEVER GET..

MAY 2014 BE A BETTER YEAR .

ALL THE BEST TO PEOPLE IN STUDIES AND RECIEVING OLVL RESULT IN AN COMING WEEK TIME .. STUDY HARD !

LASTLY IM GONNA END MY SHORT POST WITH PHOTO I HAD LAST NIGHT.

HAVE A GREAT 2014 PEOPLE ..

THEY MADE 2013 A GREAT ONE, IM LUCKY I HAVE THEM IN MY LIFE

CLIQUE (AWESOME 6)

WE CAME FROM A DIFERENT PRIMARY SCH , DIFFERENT HOUSE BACKGROUND AND DIFFERENT TYPE PERSONALITY..

THIS YEAR IS THE 5TH YEAR WE'VE BEEN THROUGH TOGETHER (; WE HAVE COUNTLESS UPS AND DOWNS SINCE SEC1 BUT AS TIME GOES BY WE GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER BETTER .. THOSE UNNECCESARY QUARRAL HAS LESSEN DOWN (;

WELL, HERE ARE MY WORDS FOR YOU GIRL..
IM REALLY GLAD IVE MET YOU'LL, I'VE NEVER REGRET GETTING TO KNOW ALL OF YOU AND WENT THIS FAR.. I ADMIT AT TIMES I MAY GET PISSED OFF OVER THINGS YOU'LL SAY AND DONE BUT NONETHELESS, YOU'LL ARE STILL THE BEST BUNCH OF SISTERS/BESTFRIEND I HAVE IN SECONDARY LIFE & MADE MY LIFE IN SECONDARY SUCH A GOOD ONE..
WE'VE SEEN EACH OTHER CRY, BREAKUP, QUARREL, GOT INTO TROUBLE AND MANY MORE.. WE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER MORE THN SOME OTHER DOS.. WE MAY BE PEOPLE'S TOPIC WHEN THEY TALK BEHIND OUR BACK, BUT WHO CARES WE'RE JUST BEING OURSELF..

I LOVE THOSE TIMES WE WOULD COME TOGETHER TO TALK ABOUT HOW WE FIRST MET.. HOW AWKWARDLY WE WERE & OUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF EACH OTHER.. WE WOULD GO CRAZY WHEN WE ARE CAMWHORING & GOT VIOLENT WITH EACH OTHER. WE CAT FIGHT AND "TAU POK" EACH OTHER LIKE NO BODY BUSINESS WHEN WE ARE CRAVING FOR SOME FUN AT SOME RANDOM TIMES.. WE WOULD GO CRAZY IN THE PUBLIC AND LIKE LOOK AT EACH OTHER WHEN WE ARE BEING TOO OVERBOARD AND SAY "SHH... PEOPLE WATCHING PEOPLE WATCHING !!"
WE WOULD HAVE EYECANDIES ON SOME GUYS AND OUR WHOLE CLIQUE WILL DISTURB EACH OTHERS AND SAYY " SEE SEE .. YOUR EYECANDY COME LIAO !!"

THOSE MEMORIES WE HAD IN SENG KANG SECONDARY SCH ARE DEFINATELY UNFORGETTABLE AND FUN & I WOULDNT FORGET. HOPEFULLY ALL THIS WOULD LAST FOREVER & WE WOULDNT LOSE CONTACT IN FUTURE..

I LOVE ALL OF YOU BABES ..
XINPING
XUE QI
MAY
SHITING
SHERYEE

TNG RUI CHEN . 

IT HAS BEEN 8 YEARS.. SINCE PRIMARY 3 WHEN I WENT INTO SENGKANG PRIMARY.. WE GOT INTO THE SAME CLASS AND I GET TO KNOW YOU.. AS TIME GOES BY, WE CREATED MORE AND MORE MEMORIES.. WHICH END UP CASUE US TO HAVE AN UNBREAKABLE FRIENDSHIP..

RMB THOSE TIME I WOULD GO TO PLACE AFT SCH AND STARE IN AIR TO DO NOTHING ?

PRANK CALL PPL USING MY GOD DAMN HOUSEPHONE (ITS STUPID COS WE DIDNT KNOW SOME PPL HAVE CALLER ID) HAHAH .

RMB I WOULD SIT OUTSIDE YOUR PLACE THE WHOLE DAY EVEN IF IM NOT ALLOW TO ENTER JUST BCOS I WANNA SPEND TIME WITH YOU..

RMB WE TALK ON THE PHONE THE WHOLE DAY/WHOLE NIGHT 

RMB WE WOULD GO OUT WITH YOUR DAD AND ENJOY THE LORRY RIDE AT THE BACK ?

RMB HOW YOUR BRO TOOK PORK KNIFE AND CHASE AFTER ME ?

RMB HOW YOU PULL ME ON SKATES AND MADE ME FALL HARD ?! HAHAH

RMB HOW WE PLAYED MAHJONG WITH 2 FREAKING PPL ?

RMB HOW WE USED TO ENJOY FETCHING YOUR BRO FROM KINDERGARDEN ? 

RMB HOW AFT FISRT DAY OF SCH WE MEET EACH OTHER AND TELL EACH OTHER THE STRANGE FRIEND WE MET AND STUFF ? ..

AFT THAT WE DRIFTED APART, WE HAD OUR FRIENDS, YOU BECAME REBELLIOUS, WE DIDNT CONTACT OR MEET FOR A LONG TIME.. WE WERE SO BUSY..

TIMES GOES BY, WE FINALLY HAD SOME TIME TO SPEND TGT, IM GLAD WE'RE STILL THE SAME.. REMINSING THOSE GOOD OLD TIME TOGETHER.. GOING CRAZY AND ENJOYING OURSELF, WE DC WHAT OTHER THINKS ABOUT US.. IM GLAD OUR FRIENDSHIP STILL ABLE TO CONTINUE AND GO ON ..

HERE ARE SOME WORDS FOR YOU..

I SWEAR I WOULD REST IN PEACE IF I HAPPEN TO LEAVE EARLIER THN YOU BY HAVING YOU BY MY SIDE.. WHEN I WAS DOWN YOU'D LISTEN TO ME.. YOU WOULDNT FEEL IM IRRITATING.. YOU GAVE ME YOUR LOVE YOUR SMILE AND EVERYTHING YOU CAN DO TO CHEER ME UP, MAKE ME SMILE.. WHEN IM GOING THROUGH HEARTBREAK , YOULL BE BY MY SIDE TO LISTEN TO ME AND GIVE ME ADVICE.. I LOVE YOUR HUGS , YOUR JOKE , YOUR LAUGHTER AND EVERYTHING YOU COULD HAVE GIVEN ME.. WE MAY SPEND VERY LESS TIME ON EACH OTHER BUT IN TIMES TO COME WE HAVE THE FUTURE .. I WOULD WANNA GO OVERSEA WITH YOU AND MANY THINGS TGT WITH YOU.. ILL NEVER FORGET OUR ADVANTURE COVE DATE.. I PROMISE I WOULD BRING YOU THERE (: RMB YOUR FRIENDS MAY NOT STAY WITH YOU OR GUYS COME AND GO, IM ALWAYS HERE BY YOUR SIDE TO LISTEN TO YOU AND BE BY YOUR SIDE.. YOU HAVE ME AND YOUR FAMILY FOREVER.. RMB HOW YOUR DAD ASKED IF I WANNA BE HIS GOD DAUGHTER ? (';

I WOULDNT ALLOW ANYONE TO HURT YOU, I BELIEVE YUXUAN IS A GOOD GUY.. HE'LL DEFINATELY TAKE CARE OF YOU AND LOVE YOU TO THE MAXIMUM..

"I'LL ALWAYS BE ON YOUR SIDE EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST YOU"

ILL ALWAYS RMB THIS PHRASE YOU TOLD ME.. IT APPLIES ON YOU TOO..

THANKS FOR EVERY SINGLE THING YOU'VE DONE FOR ME I APPRECIATES IT ..

I LOVE YOU BABE ..

NORMAN TEO

IM PROUD TO SAY, I USED TO HAVE AN AWESOME BOYFRIEND .. BUT IT'S THE PAST..

0909 WAS THE DAY .. IVE TO SAY , I APPRECIATED YOU ABIT TOO LATE.. I REGRETTED AND I FELT LOST THE DAY YOU LEFT.. I COULDNT BRING MYSELF TO ACCEPT IVE LOST A GUY WHOSE PATIENT WITH ME ALL THOSE WHILE, ACCOMPANY ME NO MATTER HOW TIRED HE IS AFT HIS GAME , WILLING TO SPEND MONEY ON ME DESPITE HAVING FAMILY PROBLEMS & EVEN NEGLECTED HIS FRIENDS FOR ME.. IM SORRY IM BEING UNREASONABLE BACK THN AND I LOST A GUY LIKE YOU..

OVER THIS 4 YEARS , MANY THINGS HAPPEN & WE GOT TOGTHER THIS FEB.. I CAN SEE YOURE FLIRTY TYPE WHEN YOURE SINGLE .. BUT YOURE GOD DAMN SERIOUS ONCE YOURE ATTACHED .. BUT I GET TOO PARANOID AT TIMES ): IM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING THTS ALL I COULD SAY ..

I DONT BLAME YOU FOR ALL THE TEARS YOUVE MADE ME SHED, THIS IS TO RETURN ALL THOSE TEARS YOUVE SHED FOR ME COS YOUVE BEEN HURT ): IM SORRY.

ITS GOOD YOU FOUND SOMEONE BETTER.. I TAUGHT YOU SOME VALUABLE LESSON SO DO I .. IVE LEARN FROM MY MISTAKE AND WOULDNT REPEAT ON MY NEXT (': COS IVE LOST SOMEONE WHO MEANT THE WORLD TO ME ..

MAY OUR FRIENDSHIP LAST FOREVER FRIEND (';

RUI MIN

IVE MET THIS LOVELY GIRL ON MY FIRST DAY OF WORK.. WE MAY NOT HAVE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR LONG BUT OUR FRIENDSHIP ESCALATE VERY QUICKLY (: SHE TRUSTED ME AND SHARED WITH ME MANY THINGS IN HER LIFE.. SHE'S WILLING TO DO SO MUCH THINGS FOR ME AND IN RETURN IM DOING IT FOR HER.. WE TALK SO MMUCH EVERYDAY AND EVEN PLANED TO GO ON HOLIDAYS , SLEEPOVERS , PARTY AND MANY MANY THINGS TOGETHER..

ON MY FIRST DAY OF WORK SOME PPL DECIDE TO ASK HER STAYED AWAY FROM ME.. BUT SHE DIDNT , SHE APPROACHED ME AND TALKED TO ME.. THIS IS HOW EVERYTHING STARTED .. SHE GOT CALLED BETRAYER AND PPL DISTURBED HER COS SHE TALKED TO ME.. BUT STILL SHE DECIDED TO STAY WITH ME INSTEAD.. WE HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY AND WE CAN GO ON AND ON AND ON ..

I LOVE HOW WE TEXT EVERYDAY AND SHARE WITH EACH OTHER HOW OUR DAYS WAS AND GOSSIP ABOUT GIRLS AND FANGIRLING IN OUR EYECANDIES (';

I TOLD HER I LOST THE GUY THT I REALLY LOVED BUT COULDNT GET, SHE TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY COS SHE'LL BE MY "BOYFRIEND" TILL I GOT ONE ('; HOW CAN I NOT LOVE HER ?

I REALLY HOPE THIS FRIENDSHIP OF OURS WOULD NOT DRIFT WHEN YOU START SCH AS WE LIVE SO FAR (HARBOURFRONT & SENGKANG) ..... NOT THT FAR ACTUALLY .. HAHAHA .. I WOULDNT WANNA LOSE A FRIEND LIKE YOU.. WE HAVE SIMILAR FASHION SENSE AND HUMOUR LEVEL AS WELL AS THOSE THINGS WE TALKED ABOUT, I REALLY FELT THT YOURE MY LONG LOST SISTER LOL !

HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON AND HAVE A SAFE TRIP BACK FROM TAIWAN. ILOVEYOU LEERUIMIN .!

TO MY BELOEVED CRUSH (HE SHALL FOREVER STAY UNKNOWN)

IVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME , BUT RECENTLY I FEEL LIKE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU.. NOT TILL THE EXTENT IM GONNA GO CRAZILY OVER YOU , BUT IM JUST GLAD I GET TO SEE YOU TYPE (; IVE NO IDEA WHEN IM GONNA SEE YOU SOON BUT IM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH YOUR CARING PERSONALITY..

I REALLY THINKS THT IM GOING FOR SOMETHING ILL NEVER GET, YOU WOULDNT KNOW I LIKE YOU EITHER.. EVEN IF YOU DO, I DONT DERSERVE YOU AT ALL..YOURE JUST TOO GOOD FOR ME..

I COULD ALSO SEE THT MANY GIRLS ARE AFT YOU.. WHY WOULD I BE SO SPECIAL THT YOU HAVE TO LIKE ME RIGHT ?

YOUR MAY HAVE FLAWS BUT WHO CARES ? GUYS HAVING PERSONALITY LIKE YOU IS SO HARD TO FIND )': I FOUND YOU BUT YOU DOSENT BELONGS TO ME..

ITS LIKE TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR US ):

SO LONG CRUSH .. MAY WE MEET AGAIN ..

I LOVE YOU.

Hii !!!! Im back like a finally ... 

I cant let this blog die .. hahaha , blogging used to be my passion and im loving it .. all those bits and pieces of memories i had is being written down .. 

Well , today my motive here is to dedicate post for tht guy above (: 

He may left bad impression of him for the past 3 years but i can really see the big change in him .. perhaps i should say thank god , thanks for allowing him to come into my life .. i really dunno how would i be like without him .. okkkk ... i also dunno how to start ....

Errrrr , 3 years ago while i was in sec2 and he's in sec1 .. i got to know him from ..... idk .. hahaha , he's always socialable since last time .. and ppl say him as 'playboy' ... and actually thts what i thought so in the past to .. he ask me to gave him a chance and let me be with him . but i was attach during tht time .. since thn i dunno what got into him , he tried and tried and tried .. sec1 , sec2 , sec3 every year .. he didnt gave up .. he may have alot ex-es in between but he felt nothing like now .. like finally , when we started contacting each other last year .. he seems change he seems like a whole new ppl aft not talking for like 6-7 months .. hahaha . & so , i gave him a chance .. i even told him there 'probation' hahah . i say all i want about this year is studies .. but he really made me touched by something he did (': something bout us just felt so special .. hais .. i also dk what ..

Im kindda suprise everytime i rage him , he would just smile and ask if im okay . he nvr rage back . never scold back or shout at me before .. i know im mean at times but the attitude of mine can never ever be changed . thannks for acccepting me for who im .. ill appreciate you , someone like you is really hard to find <3 ..="" .="" alwauys="" and="" at="" b="" busy="" but="" everything="" for="" go="" hahah="" if="" ill="" im="" is="" my="" nbsp="" neglect="" nicely="" objective="" plan="" poly="" sorry="" studying="" thanks="" time="" times="" to="" you="">

i know you are very disappointed today , but i know you tired your best . you put too much stress on yourself already ): hahahais . hahahah thanks for your trophy , i know i wasnt your greatest motivation but im still part of it .. cheyyyyy (: Nice one boyyyy you done your best (:

Signing off ~

ShiXuan 

Whats's up ? :D

 Whats upp lovelies !! :D <3

hahaha , im here to post , cos currently im bored ..

well , what to do ? (: hmm , im charging my phone thru coom cos i left charger at hospital

now , my dearest niece is admitted to hospital , omg , small girl poor thing seyy ..

well , get well soon darling , i miss you at home (':

hais , so common test 2 is about to finish , didnt do well in common test 1

but yet , i have got back english and dnt , i failed english and passed dnt

today had maths paper and im so scared i would fail and drop to band3 ):

okayy , so 5 more mintues to 3rd march , time flies like nobody business

seriously , finally , its my 6 months with Muhd Rasydan <3 hahaha

knowing him for 9 months already .. probaly 5 years about to be 6 already <3

hehe , we had a long long past and long long story .. hope all this could last as long as we wan

no quarrel , no fight , no misunderstanding , no over sensative ..

just hope everyday i could smile :DDD

With Love , ShiXuannn (:

Iloveyou MuhdRasydan ! <3

♥ ; Im Back Aft 3 Months (:

Hello ! :D It has been 3 months ever since i have posted .. Miss me right ? cheyy ! just joking , i bet no one is blogging nowaday , all either at twitter or facebook liao .. aft considering , i have decided not to let my blog die (: so im here updating it ...

during this 3 month ever since i posted , many things happen , be it happy , sad , fun or excited , i sure do enjoy .. this year is ending soon , in less thn a month time , and my birthday is also in less thn a month ! hahaha ! youu know what i mean huh ! :DD i wannn ........... *winks* heh !

today worked in da morning and home aft tht and i slept all thh wayy till its dinner time ! Imma pigpig .. a cute one (: hahaha , it has been a long time since i used destop and also blog . so i shall do some fixing to thh things in my destop (: hahaha .

hope i will post real soon (: see ya !

Loveyou Muhd Rasydan ! ♥

Youu Smile , I Smile

 

IM BACK AFT I LEFT FOR 2 MONTH !

I bet youu all miss me right ? hahaha , kayy laa , im back already , thanks my Sheril updating my blog (: im back to blog for some reason ^^ someone request me to blog .. haha .. okayy , im somehow stuck at home right now , most of my fren cannot make it and others busy with raye ): haiya , nvrm , ltr going to meet mummy at nex for dinner , oh , a few days ago celebrated aunty bday .. tsk .. bored /: I have been sick for days ): haiya, dunn like this feeling , hope cann recover byy wednesday (: Going hari raya soon , enjoy my sweetheart ! :D <3

Aft today , i dunno when will i post again (: cfm someone will force me post again .. hahaha . most probaly i would be back uhh , if im really bored like today laa /: hmm , also hope tml would be a successful one , dunn wanna stay home like today agian ): Okayy , byee !!

Dear Supermann , ever since 25th , thanks for making me smile all thh wayy kayy ? i hasnt had such smile and laughter already , all thanks to youu , youu are thh best i have met (: thankyouu so much kayy ? <3 I love You , thts what i caould say , sincerely from my heary <3 baby ~

With Love ,
ShiXuannnn .

stupid bitch dk how to update blog! -.-

so hii!!! i wonder if this blog is still alive or not herhhhh ~ 2 mths die alrdy (Y) k so this bitch ask me to update her blog, k la i nice mah. so i update lo. hmmms, wht shuld i update abt? k, common test is over FTW. ohhh, wanna know something? i cant believe tht we forgot out 17th Aug!! cs i was focusing on 19th Aug to remind her ;< haiyaaa, take it easy ok babygurl? :') you sad i sad, when want to game? hahaa, and this mth there's no outing due to common tests. no worries, will make up by september! and uh, im sure she's gonna be really down on 19th sept. cheer up k! im here! you promised him tht you will move on right? you cn do it~ aiya, we both same same la. ohhh anyway idk how this gurl grew a bit taller o_o fuckyou! haahha! okay i think thre's enuf of me updating her blog. hello missy pls update oftennn k -____- hehehe, k bye. lurpchu xx - shashaak.

- Hello

Dear XinPing ,

Hope Youu Really Do Stayy strong , everything will fine aft dayys have pass .. (: Do cheer upp . Anything , thh 5 of us will always be there alright ? hehe , we love youu babe <3

Okayy ! Hello people . im here , well well , just posted a few day back , and was busy recently , have been over at XinPing place for thh pass 3 days , first day went over and stayed overnight , second night want over till 3 plus due to my aftnoon trng and today till 11 plus , my mummy is nagging at me for coming home late and she hasnt seen me for days .. well , tml im off to accompany her , i guess on sunday , thts thh day she need us thh most .. Okayy , now im going to catch upp with my ' clif ' and thn off to sleep , need more rest and taking IC photo tml , dunn wanna look shag (: hehehe ! okayy ! tata .. bfr i leave i have some dedication .

Look Upp at thh pretty girl beside me , okayy , let me tell a storyy , on 17th June 2005 , i got to know this girl , we were in different class in primary school , somehow or what we did talk a little and made fren , but slowly , as time passes and we went into secondary school , i start to get to know her more , just too much ! we have just too much in common ... we laugh , cry , dance , go crazy together ... aft many times of being backstab , cheated by ppl and breakupp with boyfriends , we are always there to listen to each other ,, lend a shoulder when we cry .. we also gave each other motivation , so we could stay strong even though we know we lost someone tht is impt and we really love .. but , this friendship of ours , still here standing strong , we didnt have any misunderstanding , quarrels or fight ... we tried our very best and in every ways to help one another when we are in doubt , this kind of friendship are hard to find ... 6 years and still counting <3 hope this would last forever .. (:

- Boy i miss youu .

xoxo ;

ShiXuannn .



♥ ; Boy , i miss youu ..

Hello ! ♥

Okayy Okayy ! Im back to post , i will try to save my blog kayy ? wouldnt let it rot anymore .. Hmm , okayy , todayy woke upp at 12 plus , got ready & met YOEY and SHERIL @ compass for lunch !! :DD hmm , thn aft tht went bk school watch match , cos YOEY wann watch ssomeone playy , *winkwink* skipskip !! had match against Dunman High todayy , & Surprisingly ! We wonn (Y) hahaha ! okayy okayy , thn headed to SKCC with YOEY & YIJIE ! (: heheh ~! KAIYING & SINPING was there , stayed there till 8 plus before heading home .. hmm , thn thn while waiting for 43 , & it finally came ! & we stand there thh uncle just drove past ! damn pek cek ! nbnb ! make me miss my show >: tsk ! so pissed off .. okay okayy , thn reach home watch teevee , eat maggie & im here using com again like finally ^^ Okayy laa , im tired ! i will be back soon ! bye bye !

19th Was 2 days ago & '25th is in  4 day time ! >:

"9th" month & 2nd month without youu /:

Boyy , looking at thh past post since 19th September , seriously , im starting to miss youu again , i may say i hate youu and trying to forget youu , but whenever i think bout our memories , it just made me think bout youu again ): whyy is it youu must lidat ? if it isnt becos of your attitude , i believe this could last , but sadly , we aint fated .. whyy is it ? why i trusted you so much and by 1 words , im all down , thh feeling was different whenever im with you , get it ? haish , FuckMyLife Seriosuly ): Lets rwewind time till thh December 2010 ! i wish everything cann change during tht time ): yes yes yes ! i admit ! I MISS YOUU )':

xoxo ;

ShiXuannn ♥

♥ ; Happy 6th years of friendship with my dear bbhybitch ~

HAPPY 6TH YEAR BBHYBITCH ! ♥

It has been so long , since 17thJune2005 till now 17thJune2011 . It has been 6 year , we went thru many ups and down , even though we aint tht good in primary school , but or friendship eventually started well in secondary school , slowly , we started to share our secrets , our heartbreaks and everthing , she there whenever i need a shoulder to cry on , she wouldnt leave me alone whenever i have friendship , releationship or any other problems .. there to protect me when someone bullies me ! we shed tears , we laugh , we go crazy and did many thing togrther , she's just too awesome .. We are so fated can .. Im 7th , she 8th . and our heartbreak on 14th .

BITCH ! I UPDATED LIAO HORR >.<

Hello people ! im back to blog like finally , miss me right ? hahaa , sorry laa , im busy with CCA , friend and going out ;x hehehe ! hmm , tml going out celebrate Haresh bday .. hehe ! okayy , i seriously need more sleep now , hmm , well , maybe or somehow i will be back again ,, my blog is starting to collect dust , i know i know . but im a #busygirl96 (: hahaha ! kbye ♥




Youu have left for 1month 24days already .. I may still think of youu sometimes , but i nvr had thh thought of going back to youu , youu are so mean seriously ): i hate youu , youu only come back when you need me , thn dunnid me ignore me ... but when i just ask you back you insist of leaving ! wtf . haish .. tht life , tht you , im just too stupid to love youu , to believe youu ! i musnt be so soft hearted anymore .. tsk . 1 more day to 19th . " 9th Month " & 7 days to 25th , thh 2nd month youu left .. well , same thing , single is always thh best (:

xoxo ,
ShiXuann ♥

malaysia woman! :D

SHERILBATMANZXCVAMPYKITTY HERE! <3

uh yes, this bbybitch's blog has long not been updated for like almost a month?! how lazy can she be uh? pigggy muahahaha ~ :D told her upteen times to update, dont want update~ even tht time our outing still dont want update! bambam! :D heheee ok now im taking this chance to update her blog la. ^^ she's in malaysia now, coming back on sunday night i suppose for a wedding. she's becoming a malaysia womannn hahhhh. ;> okey, y'kno wht. things have been hard for her, and only we know and some other close frens. oh well, maybe time is nt here yet. and maybe soon ok bbygurl? just be patient, and everything will be fine. hehee, no worries. you see, we last longer than any other jerk jerk out there le! hehehee, and 17th is coming! YAY! 6 years and counting! whoa happy like mad, uhuhsiulahah. :D hmmms, and she's been getting injuries here and there -.- you better take care of yourself okay!! haiyomah, and you kno kno i read finish vampire diaries th part 1 book le!!! must story telling to you eheh, okay see you soon come bck! :D waiting for th nxt outing, lupchiu muah xx

SUPERBATMANZXC :D

25th x/3

♥ 25th is where everything came to an end )':

Im Sorry for not posting for a super long time ):

1. Im not in thh mood ,

2. Exam period , need studyy ):

3 subject dwn 6 more to go /:

190910 - 250411

(thh worst heartbreak . 218 days , 7 month 5 days <3)

There are many things in my mind , and i felt so corrupted ):

Heyy boy , i dunno if i could trust youu , well , everything came to and end , if i say no you sayy yes , i aint going to win , thanks for all those memories youu have given me , i wouldnt move on , i will always be waiting , even if i knew youu hurt me so much , made me cryy so much ,  i guess i have used to those pain youu have given me , youu may have lied , flirt , but i pretend i knew nothing , this is what hurt thh most ): i forgiven youu , i know i have not given youu thh best , im not those preety girl youu always look on .. im a stupid and clumsy gurl , aft 7 month , i guess youuu get bored and tired /: Hiashh .. im speechless frm what youu sayy , if this isnt feeling fade that we need to spilt , yy didnt you sayy youu still love me ? if youu really do , no matter what youu wouldnt let me go , so i guess not , so i guess youu are nothing to me ! Im soo fucking foolish to keep waiting for a person like youu .. hais , i wanna tell youu many things , bad and good things that i usally didnt dare to sayy in thh past .. its okayy , i will always wait for youu , among all those relationships i have been in , you made my heart skip a beat when  i sees youu , you made me feel like showing off youu are mine , you make me had thh WORSE-EST heartbreak , youu made me cry thh most , youu hurt me thh most , i have no reasob to stop loving youu , i just dunno whyy cant i let go /: This really shows what an stupid idiot am i /:

i will proberlyy be back right aft exam , i promise alright ? got to go , wanna clear my mind

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BuhbyeReaders !

♥ ; Happy Belated 7th Month ! :DD

THANKS TEOXINPING FOR THH DEDICATION :DD

HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARY BBHYLOVE ! ♥

(190910 - 190411)

Thanks boy , thank for everything youu have given me , smile , cry , heartache , scar and everything , but tell youu what , it means alot to me and i love it (: We have gone thru so much up and downs , bad and good time .. Even if it's bad , we still manage to overcome it slowly and peacefully , i just wish there wun be so much quarrel in future anymore .. (: thanks for being there for me when i drop tears and when im depressed youu nvr fail to solve problems with me ! youu are AWSOME !! :DD ♥

I wish this cann still go on ! <3 A memorable bayy [090411♥] ILOVEYOUU !! :DD

Okayy , So Sorry For thh late post /; Was so depressed and sad yesterdayy yo ! >.< Please i hope everything gonna be alright !! (: Haish , 7th month has pass so quickly with ihm around , he sure give damn loads of memories mann ! Thanks boyy ! ♥
Okayy ! So Mid-Year Coming liao , i swear im gonna studyy hard and prove my mum right !! hahaha , do well for mid-year , end of year wun so XinKu liao !! Okayy set ! stuudyy hard, im gonna be MIA-ing , thats good ? hahaha , kbye kbye !
ohh ya ! incase ...

MISS TEO XIN PING READ MY BLOG ! I WANN TELL HER THANKS AND I REMEMBER WHEN IS YOUR BDAY ! STOP REMINDING ME EVERY SINGLE DAYY !! HAHAHA ! KBYE !!

" Boyy , Youuu Aree Awsome ! "

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Buhbye REaders ! (:

♥ ; 3 More Dayys To thh 7th Month :P

T.E.O.X.I.N.P.I.N.G !! :DD ♥

Okayy , So , Its like weeks ever since i had post yaww ? Let me Post For Last Saturdayy And this Saturdayy Kayy ? I think amount all Onlyy Saturdayys areMeaningful mann !! :DD Or pherhaps , Thh Saturdayy 2 Weeks Ago (: Let's start !!

020411

Okayy , So Basically , Went to NEX With XinPing , ShiTing , SherYee & XueQi , wanted to watch World invasion , but ShiTing didnt wann , so we watch Sucker Punch .. Hmm , Before tht , we wen to roof top see woof woof :D heheh ! thnn take photo , went buyy food and off to cinema .. Thh show was okayy okayy luhh , kind of no linked , but i actually still rate it 2.5/5 (: hmm , thh show finished around 6 plus 7 , we were lost and dunno where to go aft that As we didnt wann to go home so ealy , So sherr headed home first , thn Me , XinPing , ShiTing and Xueqi headed to pasir ris park , we intended to go cycle , but byy thh time we reached there thh skyy alreadyy vehh dark so instead , we went to beach to photo spam .. haha , awsome !! thh night light effect was so nice , had thh hell lots of funn (: okaayy , so headed to pastamania to had dinner before me and XinPing headed back to SengKang to meet KaiTing & Varick (: hahaha , Took bus 89 hme aft that .. (:

090411

Okayy , Went Out with XinPing & 2 [-insertname-] :DD Had a hell lots of funn , what an Awsome Dayy but thh rain eventually spoiled our whole plann ! damn !! hahaha , Went to watch RIO ! Common , to XinPing she thinks it rather boring , but to me i feel that thh show damn fking funny !! *laugh* im at there laughing like a crazyy gurl so paiseyy maxx ! kayy cann , we were sitted seperatelyy !! ): Humph ! Cheyy , Thnn aft the show around 5 plus , we were lost again and didnt know where to go , we walked around like lost puppies and stand outside mac for a long time , Xinping At there Keep take picture , *shyy* youhh knoww ? hahaha ! was Raining , so spoiled all our plann ): haishh , thnn we headed to ave 8 , thnn 1[-insertname-] headed home , while we sent another [-insertname-] home ! haha , Thnn me and XinPing go hougang plaza candlelite ! .. Awsome ,, To dayy is a dayy i wouldnt forget for sure manzxc !! :DD ♥

160411

Hmm , okayy , Had CIP todayy , newspaper collection , woke upp at 0630 , actually wanna eat breakfast , but thnn i 0620 thnn woke upp ): heheh ! thnn thnn , waited for XinPing theyy all to at bus stop , ohh yarhh ! 2E5 was doing my block haha , so earlyy see them downstairs liao ~ hehe , Well , thnn took 163 , we were late , reach there immediatlyy start work liao (: haha ! thn im group with XinPing , Sunny , Xinchun and Aqil ! damn funny , Ms Bairavi were with us too , what a joke .. i swear , irt was damn awsome ! but not as awsome as last year CIP ! hahaha .. aft that me and XinPing headed home , went home rested awhile he text me and fine me problem -.- wth .. thnn aft that mummy ask me do housework thn didnt went compass find hemm .. haishh .. okayy , so finish around 4 plus , went rest awhile , bathe and off to compass to meet XinPing , ShiTing & Sheryee , sherr and ting headed home aft that while me and XinPing went Hougang Plazaa Had candle lite diner again ! :DD hahaha ! OKayy m homed aft that , todayy is not my dayy like seriouslyy , kbye ! ):

♥ ; I Mayy not expect much from youhh , i just wish youu would treat me like something youu love ,   like todayy , im seriously tired and didnt wann to meet , it's like thh vehh first time i rejected youu , but youu like rejected me so many time i still sayy its okayy ! but yet now youu scold me  ! ): Arghh ! im so disappointed and sad ya' know ? haish , 3 more dayy to thh 7th , yes , i will tryy to make this r/s go on , okayy ? <3 iloveyouuu ♥

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BuhbyeReaders ! (:

♥ ; 19th FTW :p

♥ ; Heyy Babyy , I Think i wanna marry youhh ~

Hello Hello ! Im back , i know youhh all miss me right ? dunn shy shy luhh , okayy . so went sentosa last friday with 14 awsome peeps , we sure do enjoy ourself alot yeah ? okayy can , Sundayy stayy home whole dayy yea ? ): boring much .. hmm , thnn on mondayy , had PE thh stupid handball goalpost hit my head ! Fk ! thnn 10 mins ltr got hump come upp -.- nb .. okayy cann . so yeahh , thh swollen part till now still not fking well okayy ): gee .. bbhy so worry lerr ): Like so rarely he wiould care , im so surprise and touched :x hehe . okayy cann , pleasae wish that i could meet him this fridayy and this Saturdayy to be a real sucessful one alright ? preeety preety please .. D; Okayy cann , he actually skip prayers to meet me , bayeak uhh :D hehehe , thankyouhh so much bbhy ! :D OKayy cann , anw , thh dance we dancing for CIP is effing cool luhh , hmm , okayy cann :D Im gonna go bathe thnn wann orh orh liao , okayy ? 

people change , i change , everyone change , its thh matter of time , when someone done something wrong , its good that thh person is aware of what theyy have done wrong , but yet if thh person do thh same thing again and again and is not aware , haish .. im feeling so damn ... idk ): But this change is really too huge , not everyone could take it , we didnt neglect youh before , but yy ... haish ! ):

♥ ; Boyy i miss you :D Thanks for being there whenever in sick , injured , sad or stress , thanks bbhy ! :D

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Buhbye Readers ! :D

♥ ; 19th , thh 6th :D

HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY BBHYLOVE ! :D ♥

It thh 6th boyy , 1/2 a year has gone with youhh , it mayy not be a smooth and strong releationship , but i knoe youhh have always been trying to make it a good one for me youh youhh didnt wann to disappoint me , but yet i made youhh disappointed for whatever reason , im so so sorry bbhy ): Hmm .. lets hope we do not have much problem anymore alright , just hope it would be long enough to make me smile daily , make me feel good everydayy with your smile on yr face (:

19thSeptember2010 - 19thMarch2011 ; 6th month . iloveyouhh ♥

Okayy  , nothing much this week , just holiday holiday .. like no holidayy , monday to wednesdayy got remedial -.- but didnt went on mondayy and tuesdayy .. but went on wednesday for chem onlyy -.- lame uhh .. go 15 mins nia .. gahh ..

okayy ,, so went hg mall -> 313 -> ION -> Nex

we watch BIGMOMMAS ♥ todayy , was an awsome show with XinPing , May & XueQi .. okayy .. im so so lazyy to post uhh .. noting much .. at least i get to buy what i wanted todayy .. (:

Okayy , so sheril asked me to post .. well , she currently have many problem .. sad for her , well girl .. please move on alright ? be it 8th or 12th .. but i dunn think theyy are worth it .. theyy are just crap -.- okayy ? its not good seeing youhh feeling lidat youhh know ? ): But youhh know what ? i really do not support I & A -.- thh girl is like ... *speechless* hmmm .. please dunn sad , anything youhh cann call and tell me , any time of thh day , even when im asleep , just call me upp if youhh are really down alright ? (: Always there for youhh .. ♥

17th March2011 just past , its our 5year9month .. looking forward to our 6th year (:

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Buhbye REaders ! (: