time is passing real fast ,
i will have been our 6th month we we haden't break ,

uue left miie alone for 17 days
uue are still inside my memories ,
no matter how i try to forget uue , for get the past ,
but i simply cant do it ...
everytym i see uue ,
the past memories came back agn ,
all thhis made miie vehh sad ,
fighting back all my tears i can ...

seeing uue so happy everyday ,
i dun think uue have realise ,
how many days uue have left miie lerh ,
and wads the occation 4 days agp ]:

making , and trying to make myself ,
smile n laugh ,
trying to cheer myself up ,
jealousy is still something ,
i still get jealous over somtething ,
but it not worth it ,
uue wun listen to miie

seeing uue achieving in hockey is my pleasure
without miie uue can do much more better
uue made a right choice ,
but i still need uue aalot ,
i noe spending tyms with al those fren make miie happy
but everywhere i go still gives memories ><
i just cant let uue go ,

SORRY,
it takes tym ,
give miie some tym ,
maybe giving uue sometym ,
mirical may happen somedays .
how i wish ...

smoking is bad for healh ,
so girl ! no smoking ...
i have quitted yeah !!
have not touched it for more thn 3 weeks ><
i promise i will not continue ..

i dun think my poor n innocent hand
worth all the scars n bleeding ...
sorry ,
i will not hurt uue anymore ...

sorry ppl for not posting for so long
not in the mood

darling , i still missing uue alot ,
everytym i see uue ,
the happiness is passing thru by body ,
i still loves uue alot ><
i will not love anyone ,
until the day i forget uue ><


SHIXUAN'❤

sorryyy ppl for not posting stop asking miiee y !

yarh , it has been days ever since i tok to hym
every nite tears roll down my cheek uncontrobly ,
is tis wad uue wish for ?
i dun lyk tis feeling ,
making miie cry every morning ,
in school ,
fighting back tear everytym i see uue ,
the reason is ,
i still miss ue ! i still loves uue alot !



i beg uue not to leave miie ,
but uue eventually gave up on miie
saeing uue wun love miie anymore


every morning ,
-i cried , rmb the tyms we went sch tgt , waking uue up in the morning
-i thinking of uue in class , the tym we sms each other with high risk ,
even how dangerous is it i still will sms uue .
-aft sch , missing uue alot , wanted uue to go home with miie , send miie home ,
tats wad i wan .
-every evening , smsing uue asking weather have uue eaten or done yr homework
-every nite , smsing , goodnite msg ,
i'm missing all these
i wan all the past memories !
i miss ur hugs & kisses ><



i wan uue back seriously ,
i will not give up till the day uue sae yes ! 99.9%
or the day i feel lyk giving up on uue to continue wuth my life ! 0.01%
even tough it the 7 day alr ,
but i still cant forget uue ,
crying uncontrobly ,
no one comfort miie ,
no one loves miie ,
no one care for miie ,
no one help miie when i'm in doubt !



i told uue i'm willing to change !
y cant uue just give miie a chance ?
i promise ,
it will be a new miie ,
if uue willing to forgive miie ,give miie 1 last chance to try !


i dunno if uue still care for miie ,
see miie cry ,
see miie get hurt ,
see miie get bully ,
is this wad uue wan ?

everyy place give momories XD

too many to name out ,

everytym i go tat place ,

my tears started to roll down .

yarh , especially the swimming pool ><

i still misses it alot =(

some thx to :

xinping,zhewei,shawn,may,clarence,cherine,jingting,xueqi,licia,MRGOH !,rachel,kaiting,wenxuan,ruichen><

**(telling uue all i'm someone who dun give up so easily , wan miie give up on hym ! )**

**(can only tell uue ! wait long long barh , i truly love hym derh , i will not give up until , the tym i feel lyk )**

love will tear us apart .

but i will wait .forever and a day !

every minutes away from you hurts .

but i promise i will be back !

and we will be together again .

**BAOBEIIx ! i still loves uue !! **

rather the pain on my hand thn in my heart !!

do you noe how i felt ?!

well , yesterday he left miie ,

alone in this world ,

feeling the last tym lonely and bored without uue

now without rui chen to care and love miie

now yr turn to dun care miie dun love me ...

well ...

no one have been better thn both of uue ...

yarh ,

well .. every thing uue gave miie is a precious to miie ,

i promise i will keep all three of them on my bed ...

well ..
yarh ...
it a real shocked when uue tell miie all those

well ... a few weeks ago ,

i plan to go express not normal stream ,

but i dun think i can make it ,

wif all these stress n emotional problem ,

i dun feel lyk goin to sch ,

if this year i will ever retain ,

i will not ever go to sch lerh

my studies getting lousier n lousier ,

my emotion getting vehh bad ,

well i need ppl to cheer me up in sch

pls dun tok bout all this in sch

i feel vehh tired trying to fight back tears in sch ]:

is a tourture !!!

i done a real big sascrify tis few day ,

i done wad uue ask miie,

well .i do listen to every single word uue sae

but y do you have to do tis ,

well , one thing i can onli sae is i will nv ever goin to give up ,

cos i loove uue only ,[:

uue gave up on miie but i heven ,

understand ??!!

even if it is years or months i still will wait [:

love will tear us apart .

but i will wait .

forever and a day !

every minutes away from you hurts .

but i promise i will be back !

and we will be together again .

tats all i wan to post [:
shixuan loves uue !!!

THX PPL I LOVE ALL OF UUE FOR CHEERING MIIE UP [: :

may

xinping

cheyenne

jing ting

cherine

rui chen

xue qi ...



well, thx ppl ,

for cheering miie up ,

i done cherring up lerh

i do cry

i do bleed

well ...

i noe uue dun love miie lerh ...

even have oso not tat much ...

well ... tats wads i dun lyk to hear ]:

well... today , i read the msg

i have been holding back my tears ..

i dun wan to cry out ...

haix....

uue noe uncomfortable is it ,

but no choice

i have not been listening to class ...
as uue all noe , i reach home i ....
haix ...

haix ...

i feel lyk smoking ,

i feel lyk drinking ...

but thn i stop cos i love uue ! i listen to uue !

y im treated lyk tis

haix...well ...

i promise uue wad i sure will go do derh

i wun break my promise

but uue wanted to broke the promise uue romise miie !!!

uue lier !!!!!

eeeeeee.......

i vehh sad uue noe marh ?

haix ...

so be fair barh

i shan't disturb uue more

giving uue some freedom ,

well ... i telling all of uue , both of us have fault , stop blaming hym ,

thanks loads ....

hey ppl once agn ,
thx
i love uue all ...
i have not felt so cared before ...
thx...
well ... i will try all my best derh
dun worry ... [:
PROMISE:
(but i will try)
no smoking (if i really really really feel vehh sad)
no drinking (well i dun lerh [:)
no crying (if uue all are lyk xinping & may cos they dun mind <3>
DO NOT CUT ! (well... i think it is not worth pain , scar n bleeding)
dun worry ppl i will not vent anger on anyone [:

FRENS !! : thx uue all ppl one last tym , uue all really make my life [; love ya

❤JEREMY❤ :: erm ... wad i can tell uue is i still love uue ! , i will definately wait !!! all i have is tym !!! [: lets get back n be lyk last tym [:

oh no !!!
my gastric is hurting vehh badly ]=

ouch !!!!
SHIXUAN'S is missing someone badly ]=
SHIXUAN'S wan to see some one now
SHIXUAN see hym n her pain is gone [=

haix ...
bad bad attitude toward miie is better but
he still gets angry easily ]=
i dun lyk hym to scold n shout at miie ]:

my heart is not fully healed !!