You've made all this worthwhile..

I've move on. i don't see the point having you anymore.. All along i was just a replacement to you i guess ): 

All those will be memories.. thanks for giving so much pain..

okayyy nothing related to him rn.. ive move on , i wont look back.. 

I questioned myself just now.. "Am i reallly in love ?" and i thought about it.. i guess i really am.. I never expected this day would come.. But im glad it came (': Ever since i met you, no one else is worth thinnking about.. I always wish tht the reason behind your smile would always be me.. Eventhough you may be difficult at times, i dont mind taking all those effort to put a smile on your face.. & i question myself again "Are we gonna happen?" and my answer was, yes we would if we really love each other why not.. hahaha, i was actually kinda look forward to tht day tho *cover face* You came and made everything worthwhile... You're perfect for me, thats all that matter babe.. So much that im craving to see you smile each day, i want you to be happy too.. I love how no matter wht you do you can always make me smile effortlessly.. 

If you meant nothing to me. i wouldnt wake up to your every call so i could talk to you.. make you smile when youre down, say things tht would make you smile whenever you're angry or pissed.. & reply to all your cold replies each time you're down.. this is how much you mean to me.. It may be too soon to say all those.. but i just wanna let you know..You're my priority in life.. So much that no one could replace you at this moment as long as you promise me you wouldnt leave.. i promise ill stay forever..

I know at any point of time youll get tired of me.. & youll leave eventually.. But i wish tht day would never come.. I dont know how far we would go.. I just hope its long enough for me to enjoy those times we had together.. So babe, please dont go.. )': You're everything i need rightnow.. iloveyouuuuu. 

Withlove,

ShiXuann xx

Lose you once, love you twice

It has been 6 months since 0909. It's like half a year had pass without him. I've no idea why is it so hard for me to give up on him and move on. it's damn difficult, never easy. Places,dates,time and object can make memories flashback like a bitch, where ill start to feel upset and cranky the whole day.

Bits and pieces of our memories can never fit into a 30secs video.

 I may have heard so much about you for this 6 months, but ill never believe till i see. i heard both sides of the story, from you and from others. i wouldnt judge bcos i have no idea which side is the truth. The pain upon hearing all those is hard, but i still got use to it over time.

I'm sorry, i understand things will nvr be the same again, or maybe better ? The future is unpredictable. Im glad we're still friends or maybe more thn that..  

Other than my parents and clique, you're the guy that understand me more than anyone else. My habit, my love for things and food, what and where im fear of. Nothing beats such an understanding guy like you. 

Nothing can describe my thankfulness for tolerating me this few months. I've been a bitch. im utterly sorry.

I've lose you once, I'll love you twice..
It's Complicated.